My birthday is in a week and for the first time in a long time I'm excited about it. Before a birthday was just another day, I had nothing to celebrate. In my wind no one should be celebrating my life because I had done nothing with it. I always said "If I live past thirty that I'm on borrowed time." I still believe that, I don't know what the next year will bring, none of us do. I know what I did to my body for over ten years and I know that the odds are against me. For a long time I had a lot of trouble dealing with that, then I decided that I should try to do something with my life and that I should try to do some good for others that may be in my situation.
That is where the yearly evaluation comes in. For each year that I left I will sit down the week before my birthday and reflect on the year that was. I will ask myself, was I good to Leanne? Did I do all that I could to make her life better and make her happy? I will then ask did I do all that I could to try and make a change in the diabetes world? Did I change the life of one person living with diabetes? Was I good son and brother? Finally, I will ask myself if I did all that I could for the people in my life and am I happy. I believe if I live each day with those questions in the back of my mind that I will never answer no to any question for as long I have on this earth.
This past year the answer to everyone of those questions is yes. I did fall short of reaching a couple of dreams but the effort and dream is still there. This past year I had a great year and I'm excited for this weekend to be able to reflect and have the people that mean the most around me.
(I have to end the blog with a great song that means a lot to me right now. I know I'm odd.)