This evening I was with "Sharkie" and "Care Bear" for a couple hours while Leanne was at a work event. Things went very smoothly, it still amazes me that two children are my responsibility and that they're ok in my care. While I'm alone with the children I put tremendous pressure on myself to have flawless blood sugars. I will put that same pressure on myself if I'm training or competing in a race. This evening I had a blood sugar of 69 (tee hee) while with the children and I reacted to it like it read 40. I don't want to be below 100 when racing or when taking care of the kids. It is crazy but in my mind it has to be done and I will be very angry with myself when I have a blood sugar of 50 when I'm alone with them. It will happen, I know this but I will work my butt off to try and avoid this.
The good news is that being a coach has prepared me for dealing with lows and high blood sugars while with kids. Anytime you're in charge of another life being low or high isn't the best thing, I've had lows while coaching, being in a one point game with a low blood sugar and sitting on the benching yawning while eating a powerbar never looks good to the people in the crowd. As someone said to Leanne "This is the biggest game of the year and Ryan is yawning, what is wrong with him?!?!?!" The high blood sugar while coaching is never good, the short temper is never good. Getting upset with a player because he made the wrong read on a play in practice is bad. I then have to do the walk of shame and apologize and explain myself, the best part is that the kids can tell when my blood sugar is high or low. That will come with time, but I'm still am terrified of a true low or high blood sugar when alone with "Care Bear" and "Sharkie"