That's where I'm at right now, my visit with the neurologist is in a couple weeks which hopefully gives me some answers. In this time I have tried my best to be on the bike or to run. The bike is torture as the pain while riding and trying to look up is bad. I have tried turning to running and had mixed results, one day is good and the next is bad. A lot more bad than good but without any answers I will keep going and have been cleared by doctors to do so.
The thing that is weighing heavily on my mind is that it could be nerve damage and I did this to myself. Maybe this is what I get for fifteen years of not taking care of myself or my diabetes. I have known for years that it would eventually catch up to me. The funny thing is that I'm not the only one that knew this would happen, in a very honest conversation with Kate and my brother this past weekend my brother pointed to my diabetes management in the past. Although it was tough to hear I believe he is right, the body is like a car if you don't take care of it you're in trouble. It will run but over time the performance will suffer.
Until I get a clear answer I will do my best to live my normal active life. I will do my best to race and try pulling out the bike now and again just because I need it in my life.