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Survivors Guilt

6/4/2012

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When I was belittled by the doctor before my surgery I didn't fully absorb all that he was telling me.  I was angry, I was mad at the doctor, myself, and the situation that I was in.  In time I would get my life back and began to embrace my disease and do all that I could to help others living with diabetes.  As I started to share my story with others the true impact of what I did to my body for ten years started to hit me.  Whenever I tell anyone my story I get this astonished look and the question as I call it now, How am I still alive??  When I got that question from everyday people I kind of shook it off, but as I have done more speeches to bigger audiences I have met some great and prominent doctors, nurses, and pharmacists.  When I started to get that question from them I started to really think about why and how am I still alive.

For the past two years not a day has gone by that I don't think about why I'm here and others that had diabetes are not.  The emotion I get from these thoughts changes with each day, some days it motivates me to do more for diabetes, other days I bring myself to tears and ask why.  We all know that each day is a gift, but when your are faced with your own mortality you start to see things a lot differently.  My life has changed tenfold, I enjoy my life like I have never done so before.  Little things don't bother me, if I spill grape juice on the carpet it's not a big deal.  Why get mad about that, that can be fixed.  I believe that this attitude has helped me in my new life.  I have become a much better, husband and person because I now embrace my life.

Medically I don't know how I'm still alive, I do know that I'm still here to make a difference for the diabetes community.  I owe it to the community, if I can save one person from having the same story as I then I will be happy.  I owe a huge thank you to everyone that has been reading this blog for the past few months.  You guys give me that extra push when I need most, I know that I have a number of ideas that I have talked about on this site.  I can assure you that one if not all of these ideas will become a reality.  I have been working and although I have made baby steps, I'm headed in the right direction.
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Cathy Durgin
6/4/2012 10:42:44 am

Great job Ry!!!

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