This weekend "Sharkie" and I had some man time as we headed to a birthday party for a good friends daughter who was turning one. When I say man time I mean that "Sharkie" gets to be kid and learn a few things. For example as "Sharkie" was walking around the outfield of a whiffle ball game I sat back and said "He is fine he is away from the batter and if he falls he falls on the grass" To me thats is a learning experience for "Sharkie" Moments later when he got a line drive to the gut, I sat back thinking "I'm a horrible Dad" as he looked at me and I yelled "You're ok" he laughed and picked up the ball. The tears would come moments later as one of the mothers ran over picked him up and made sure he was ok, he would drop the ball and start crying.
As we headed inside to the party my diabetes brain kicked in. He headed right over to the tub of water bottles and picked one up, I had left his bottle in the car and quickly scooped him up to go get it. After a few sips and heading back inside he wandered around the party but headed back to the tubs. Grabbing water bottle after water bottle and handing it to me, I would give him his bottle again and he drank some more. Wandered some more and then right back to the tubs, now he was picking up ice and sucking on it instead of waiting for his bottle.
Other parents would come around and say "that is so cute!!" I sat there in my diabetes brain thinking to myself this kid is craving water, has he been peeing like crazy?? I need to change him and find out!! I quickly yelled at myself and thought it's ok, I'm sure he is fine I'll just keep an eye on it and not say anything to Leanne. This is the first she will hear of it, it should be interesting when she reads this. Why all of the worry about him drinking water and thinking he has diabetes? I'm not worried if he has diabetes, if he did I know what is possible and know that we have a lot more knowledge than most. We would adapt, if "Sharkie" or "Minnie" ever develop a major disease Leanne and I will do whatever is necessary for them to live the best life that they can.
What scares me and had me scared was what comes with the diabetes, the low blood sugars, the high blood sugars, the shots, the finger pricks, and so much more. As I said earlier I get scared when one of them falls or starts crying, I can't imagine having to give a fifteen month old shots everyday. It happens though and I believe we would all be just fine. I just find it scarey that my mind goes right to diabetes if they are really thirsty or going to the bathroom more than usual. This my first diabetes brain moment and I know that it wont be my last. I have a feeling that I'm not the only person with it but does it ever go away and does anyone have any tips to help the diabetes brain to relax.