Why?? That is the first question I asked myself, I have been eating the right things and on the bike like it is my job. Why do I feel like garbage, why is that I eat all the right things and was in the best shape of my life and here comes some random thing that is taking my sanity. Do I deserve this for all the bad I did for so long, yes but the people close to me do not. I have been willing myself to do things for a month so I can hide that I don't feel well and now that is not working. I want to enjoy my summer rituals with my wife, I want to ride my bike to the local sunflower festival and then enjoy the rest of the day with her eating ice cream and going on a hay ride to see sunflowers. I can still do that minus the bike part but I don't want that tired feeling while I do. I want to play golf tomorrow and not be exhausted, I don't know if that will happen. I want to be better so I can enjoy the rituals that my wife and I have.
Things will get better, they always do. As I say when I'm on the bike, every hill or mountain you climb has to go back down. You have to struggle to get to the top but once your at the top the ride down is well worth the effort you put in to get to the top. I'm in a good place and I love my life but the negative creeps in sometimes and gets everyone down. For me I always try to find things that make me laugh and the video below has done just that for the past week. Enjoy and have a good laugh.