This evening I decided to face my fears and head to the local YMCA to swim some laps. When you can't swim, swimming laps is very difficult. I walked to the pool area so confidently but as soon as I entered the pool that confidence was nowhere to be found. I started with a freestyle (I guess that's a swim stroke) lap, it was the worse lap anyone has ever done. As I finished I looked around and people in the other lanes including the lifeguard were looking at me like I was crazy. After that my confidence was shot, I felt like I was in middle school and gave a presentation in front of the entire school with the zipper of my pants down!!
I'm sure I was imagining what the other people in the pool were thinking but I had lost my confidence. I'm used to running and cycling, I'm not the best but I can hold my own. My goal whenever I race in either sport is to see the cop car that leads the way for leaders. I entered the pool with that confidence tonight but quickly realized that I need help, I need someone to coach me. I have six months to become a half decent swimmer, the good news is that I'm so mad that I suck at swimming that I am determined to get better. I can't wait for the day that I can look back at this post and laugh, I know I will never be the best swimmer but I need to hold my own when it comes to swimming. The cycling and running will make me competitive in any triathlon or ironman that I compete in.
Some good did come from tonights debacle in the pool, my blood sugars were great. That will give me a lot of confidence moving forward, I was fearing how my blood sugar would do while I swam or in tonights case, ran in the pool. Yes after a few ugly laps I decided to just run in my lane. That got some even weirder looks but what are you going to do. I'm happy to have a friend lined up to coach me when it comes to swimming, I embarrassed myself and need to make sure that never happens again in the pool.