Moving forward I have to train like I never have before, I have to train physically and mentally. How do train yourself to total the point of total mental exhaustion. I don't know the answer but I have a feeling that my experiences have made me very tough mentally. I believe that I will have to relive some of the worse moments of my life while running a 50k. How do I train and get my brain to tell me to stop but keep moving, right now I'm thinking ice baths may work. A few minutes in the ocean this winter, I mean how else do you train your mind?
Physically I will be ok. I have put my watch away for good and will be running with a smile on my face. If I don't enjoy each and every mile while training how will I ever enjoy a 50k. I worry about time whenever I run but that stopped last weekend and will be the best thing for me moving forward. Yes I have some confidence from a strong run last week but I'm running with a new found love lately. I owe that to being on the trails, I love being on a trail for hours and running, it's not for everyone but for me it works.
I have also been doing a lot of research on Ultra races and have been listening to a lot of podcasts. My go to is UltraRunnerPodcast!! I'll listen to at least one a day while commuting to work, listening to people who have run ultras and won is an amazing thing. These are normal people that have a gift when it comes to running ultras. For example the podcast I listened to today was with a woman that has been running over 100 miles each week for the past nine years. This woman never realized how much she was running she just loved to run and made sure she did it everyday. Now she is winning ultra races, it's crazy.
I have a lot of work to do in the coming months but I believe I have a good base set. The funny thing is I didn't bring up my blood sugars once in this post. Knock on wood but I have been doing very well with my blood sugars as of late. My plan moving forward is to keep kicking ass while running and when it comes to my blood sugar!!