It has taken me far to long to realize that life is short and that being angry doesn't work. I'm enjoying each minute of everyday and that has created a new person that truly loves and enjoys life. Gone is the person that was worried about times and what people thought. My life is now lived for me and for being happy while doing what I love. That sounds selfish but while doing so I have found happiness and have found that in doing so I have opened doors for others. When you do what you love and have the best support system that is all you need. I have had my ups and my downs, I will have those ups and downs tomorrow while I race but my outlook is different and I will be a better person during those lows.
In the past I wrote about how scared I was of the race in front of me, I would write about how I don't think that I can do it. Am I scared of tomorrows race, you better believe I'm scared but I'm confident. Yes the race is over 18 miles and has over a half mile of climbing but I'm here for a reason. I will finish!! It will be my best effort and at the end I will have my best time for a 30k. No matter the time or how I ran I will have confidence and that will propel me to my first 50k in the spring of 2017!! Each challenge brings greatness, sometimes it takes us a while to see that greatness but eventually we will achieve our goal.
I have found what gives my life a sense of meaning. I have the best support system and I have people that truly believe in me and will be yelling words of encouragement no matter the circumstances. I have toys from "Minnie" and "Sharky" thats new and although they won't be at the race having those toys with me will give me that smile and the strength to keep going. I will also have someone at the start finish that has made me who I am today. That person will also be with me before and after the race. This person will have a notepad and will be writing down thoughts throughout the day to give me and you the reader what the caregiver feels as an athlete with diabetes is running a race. My caregiver will also be letting you inside my race preparation and my emotions as I get ready and after I race. It should be a very interesting note pad that will be photographed and posted on the blog tomorrow so that it is real and gives everyone an inside look. For now it is time to roll and get ready for bed!! All I can say is I feel brand new!!