The first reason and the most important reason was life. My life isn’t this wonderful blog about a guy with diabetes that uses his blog as a source of income. I said when I started that I would never do that and that is still true. Two years ago in March Kate gave birth to the most amazing boy that we could ask for. The labor was not easy, the first two weeks of our son's life was anything but normal. Our son Dilan is our life and putting a blog before that was not happening. He is now a very healthy two year old with my silliness and Kate's sweetness. Life has slowed down a little bit and I’m back blogging because of it, our lives are not a normal 6am to 10pm life but who has that anyway? As time goes on and I get back into sharing the story of my life and my life with diabetes you will hear a lot about Dilan.
My life is just like everyone else's, I have good days, I have great days, and I also have bad days. Two years ago the bad days were a lot more than the good. This has nothing to do with what I spoke about in the previous paragraph, in fact if it wasn’t for Kate, K, B, and Dilan I don’t know where I would be. I have been to the doctor far more than I’d like the past two years. Numerous visits to the neurologist, visits to Brigham and Womens in Boston for a Brachial Plexus issue, and finally a visit to an orthopedic surgeon. A diagnosis of epilepsy came in the winter of 2019 and I will say that the medications had me in a very very depressive state, I will speak about this more in another post. Then comes the brachial plexus and ortho part of things. My right shoulder has not been the same since 2009 when a blood clot in my right arm led to the removal of my first rib on the right side aka paget-schroetter syndrome. A number of cycling accidents and trail running accidents led to a bunch of issues in my right arm and shoulder. More on this in the coming days as well. The truth is I haven’t ran or been on the bike on a daily basis for almost three years because of this. If I’m not on the bike what good is a blog about being an athlete with diabetes.
The third thing that caused my break was that I was burnt out. Not so much because of my own diabetes but because I let social media take control of what I saw on a daily basis. I’m a very positive person, I know how bad things are in the world but I deal with it using positivity. I hate excuses, I hate people that play the poor me card. Life is tough, but how you deal with it shows a lot about you. On a daily basis I was seeing posts that diabetes sucks. You will never hear me utter those words!! Diabetes changed my world and saved my life. I let my personal pages on social media be a way for people that I didn’t know communicate with me about diabetes. What I saw was absolutely embarrassing!! I refuse to let that happen again. My personal Twitter and Facebook pages are now private. People will find ways to get in and send me friend requests but because a few people had to ruin it, I will be rejecting any personal friend requests. I have a page for this website on Twitter and Facebook, I will not let my children or my wife see anything negative aimed at me or them because you do not agree that diabetes can save your life.
Finally, I’m back because I have learned more about life in the past three months than I have in any other time in my life. When a family member is diagnosed with diabetes and you’re his only source of what to do when it comes to diabetes it makes you realize what this blog can do. A lot more on this tomorrow. I finish this “first” blog post with a quote from Inky Johnson “Redirection, pain, setbacks, shortcoming, highs, lows. They are all part of the process of success. Embrace it, respect it, and trust it” It is great to be back and I look forward to blogging each and everyday!!