When I know something is wrong or have a fear that something is wrong I always try to avoid the situation, especially when it comes to my health. As a diabetic I believe this is one of the worse traits that I could have. I have tried my best to eat healthy, and keep my blood sugar where it should be for five years. The problem is that I've had diabetes for 23 years, I'm in great physical condition but the one part of my body that I'm worried about is my eyes.
I'm ashamed to say that my last eye exam was five years ago, at that time my vision was good but not great. I had gone from perfect 20/20 vision in both eyes to 20/30. Last year I had digital photographs taken of my retinas while I was at an appointment at Umass. Two weeks later I got a letter saying that my photographs showed minor damage. I called my doctor that day and asked him to define "minor" he said "everything looks good but we do see small signs that tell us you need a much more thorough examination." My vision felt great however and I never made an appointment to have a complete dilation done.
Today I finally decided to make an appointment, on February 28th at 11am I will be going to my eye doctor and get a full dilated eye exam. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't scared, I'm scared that I may lose my sight one day. That can't be replaced, once my vision is gone that is it. They haven't made magic glasses that will give me vision if I ever lost it completely. I keep telling myself that I'm fine, the only problems I do have is when I get a bit low, I start to see these odd fuzzy gray balls. It is one ball but it is like a bug flying at me in slow motion. I just want to get this eye exam over with, I want to know if everything is ok. I'm sure I'm over reacting and very nervous but I feel that I have a reason to be. I hate to play the role of mother but don't be dumb like me!!! Make sure that you get a detailed eye exam every year!! I know that I will be from now on!!!
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