Now that I got the major points of my visit out of the way it's time for me to tell how I feel. The truth is that I'm pissed off at myself, 6.6 is unacceptable!!! I know exactly why my A1C is 6.6 and not 6.2, I have been lazy. I have gotten comfortable with everything, I think that because I eat the same things most of the time that I can just guess on the amount of insulin I put in. I do this at work all the time, if I'm 90 at lunch I will only take two units because I know I'll be active. Rather than counting the carbohydrates and figuring out my insulin that way I will guess and then blame my job that my sugar is higher or lower then it should be. The same happens when I'm out to dinner, it is very easy to find out the carbs in any food with my phone but I'll guess and just put in the amount of insulin that I believe is right. Dropping my A1C a half point comes down to not being lazy and not being satisfied with good numbers. I want blood sugars and an A1C that people look at and say WOW not an A1C that people see and say that's good.
I can only imagine what people are thinking when they read this, I know I'm being very hard on myself. I don't want to hear from people about how I'm doing better than most and told that I'm healthy and in great shape. I expect perfection from myself, that may mean I will never be satisfied but I never want to become complacent with my diabetes. I need competition in anything that I do, I have goals that I have set for myself diabetes wise and after today I have found that I'm not even close to reaching my diabetes goals. In three months that will not be the case!!!