Last night Leanne was receiving her masters. I wanted nothing more than to have a perfect blood sugar from 4PM until our night ended around 11PM. I put so much pressure on myself to be perfect. The last thing I wanted was attention on me because my blood sugar was higher or lower than it should be. For the most part I did very well and was able to be "normal" for the entire night. The only hiccup came just before 6PM, the ceremony was scheduled to begin at 6:30 and I was hoping to grab a quick sandwich from Subway so that I had food and insulin at my normal time. I was feeling off and knew I needed food, my blood sugar was at 80 and heading down. I quickly ran to grab a sandwich to right the diabetes ship. I also grabbed a Snapple just in case my blood sugar went low at any point during the ceremony. I was very happy that when I tested at the end of the ceremony my blood sugar was at 148, I felt amazing but needed to see a number just to make sure.
I'm very proud of Leanne and I'm very relieved that my blood sugar was not a problem last night. I find it very strange that I have this odd insecurity about my diabetes management when major events are going on in our lives. My A1C and blood sugar reading tell me that most of the time I have great management of my diabetes. For some reason though, I put tremendous amounts of pressure on myself. It may never happen but I need to learn to trust myself. I know what I need to do it is just a matter of executing everything at the right time. Again, diabetes is a great disease and I love the challenges that it provides. I couldn't ask for a better disease!!