Notice that I left out father in most of that paragraph. I have a father that means the world to me, he has done his best to raise me and to this day is still teaching me about life. He made it look far to easy, he was always there and always available when I had questions. (My mother is as well, I'm a very lucky person) With all of that I have no clue how to be a father. I know how to act like a child and how to explain right from wrong but there is so much more to being a father. Having diabetes and being a father has been easy so far, Minnie and Sharky are young and have yet to ask questions. Those questions will come however.
Tonight after coming home from basketball practice I had picked up dinner, as Leanne got the kids seated I put the food on the table and was ready to sit down and have a nice family dinner. As I sat down to my plate of pasta with a blood sugar of 75 and my mealtime bolus already active I got up to grab a glass of juice to avoid a low. I knew I needed a quick fix so that I would be myself for dinner and our pre bed routine. As I poured my apple juice I spotted a kids Cliff Bar on the counter, I thought "perfect that will work!!" I quickly ate the bar and snuck back to the table for dinner.
As we finished our dinner, Minnie politely asked to have her bar that she had left on the counter. I quickly expressed "Um I ate the bar, we have more right?" Thats when the bar fight began. Minnie was upset but in a very mature manner expressing "Daddy that was my bar, why did you eat it?" I calmly explained that daddy didn't feel well and needed food to feel better. "But that was my bar!!" she yelled I once again tried my best to explain why I needed it. After a few comments back and forth she walked over to grab another bar probably not fully understanding why I had eaten her bar.
I'm quickly running out of time, the questions will come and keep coming. Minnie wants to know about Daddy and why he always has to take medicine. I wish she would ask why daddy runs and cycles for hours each day, that I can explain but again comes back to diabetes. Each and everyday we are learning, if you're not learning you aren't living. Each day I'm learning how to introduce diabetes to my children and although it is tough I love doing so. No matter what race I do on the bike or what race I run being a father will be my biggest and best accomplishment.