The funny thing is that I have put in the work and I have a very good idea of what my A1C will be tomorrow. I'm just hoping that the number is what I expect, I like to put pressure on myself to be the best in anything that I do and after making the switch from the pump to injections and now back to the pump, a higher than normal number will not be acceptable. The funny thing is even if my A1C is lower than what I expect I will push myself to be better. The same thing happens after races, I always feel that I could do more. I also put some more pressure on myself with all of the races that I have planned for 2019, if my A1C is a little high I will allow a little bit of doubt creep in. The mind of an athlete living with diabetes is an interesting place sometimes.
At the end of the day however I can't complain, I'm living my dream and have never been happier. The goals and dreams I have for the days, months and years ahead will not change because of my A1C tomorrow. No matter the number I will be happy and will probably cry on the drive home because of where I am. Coming up on twenty-nine years with diabetes will have me reflecting and realizing what I have done to get to this point. My dreams never changed from the day I was diagnosed until now, it just took me a little while to figure out how to reach my dream.