My next appointment with my endocrinologist is not until the middle of March so today I made a trip to Wal-Mart to purchase an A1C self-test made by Bayer. I have used the test before and the results it gave me were right on with the number I got when I went to the endocrinologist. I’m not sure when my last A1C was so I desperately wanted to know my number. I had a feeling I would be around 6.2 but that my magic number of 6.0 would be tough to come by this time. As I put the sample of blood on the cartridge I became very nervous. It takes five minutes to get the results, for those five minutes I think I walked about ten miles waiting anxiously for the result. I slowly walked over to the tester and saw 6.4!! My reaction to the number involved a little bit of cursing.
Although 6.4 is really good it’s not where I want to be. I may have set the bar to high but I will continue to shoot for the magical 6.0 mark. My last four A1C results have been, 6.3, 6.2, 6.4 and 6.4. My A1C is stuck; I’m not sure what else I can do to get it lower. The emotions I have are both good and bad; I was at 14.4 just three years ago and now I’m mad at 6.4. I have become a much better person and diabetic but if I’m not improving I’m not satisfied. I have thought about the changes I could make and I feel like an Olympic sprinter. Olympic sprinters are basically all at the same level, they need to work on the tiniest things to take a tenth of a second off their times. A tenth of second could mean finishing first or finishing third. Although they work on the running everyday they focus on coming out of the blocks at the start that’s where they can cut out a tenth of a second that could make a difference. If I want to go from 6.4 to 6.0 I need to look at my basal rates a half unit change could keep me at 130 rather than 140 during the day. My between meal snacks may need to be tweaked, rather than an apple and granola bar I may want to try a piece of whole grain bread and peanut butter. It’s going to be the small things that make the difference. At the same time I have to be very careful that I don’t get truly angry with my diabetes, although I just ranted about being mad at an A1C of 6.4 I’m still mentally strong diabetes wise. I’m very happy with how I feel and my life as a whole. I can’t let the pursuit of perfection drive me to the point of diabetes burnout. The joys of diabetes you gotta love it!!!!
Below is a diabetes pyramid that I made about a year ago. If I complete the pyramid I’m not sure what the reward will be but I’d probably frame it and hang it on the wall. I need to see results and the pyramid has helped tremendously it gives me something to try and accomplish. The best thing is the pyramid can work for anyone. All you need are ten goals and the mental toughness to accomplish these tasks. Put the reward above the pyramid so you know what you’re working for. Stay motivated and trust me the results will take care of themselves.