When I was given my A1C all of the praise I was given earlier went away. I was a tad mad with my A1C, I'm happy it was under 7 but for all of the praise I just received I thought it would be a bit lower. For the past few hours I have been very angry, as I write I have become more accepting of my A1C, this has been my first opportunity to really reflect on everything the doctor said. I think that I need to stop worrying so much about just my A1C. For the past five years that number has been my only focus, I have had lower A1cs but my blood sugars were all over the place, 60 one minute and 230 the next. I'm not sure if I'm in a better place now but having the lower standard deviation and a sub seven A1C seems to be a great thing.
Moving forward I will continue to try and get an A1C while also keeping a low standard deviation. My diet will also change a bit, I need to be a little more consistent with my blood sugars around 10am and need to work on my blood sugars after dinner and before bed. As always diabetes will always have a challenge for me and I will always fight like hell. Also, it is amazing how much better I feel after writing this evening. It is a lot better to write out my worries or angers than hold them in and be mad!! Thanks for the help reader of my blog!! You're the best!!!